“How long, O LORD? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?”
Psalm 13:1
Psalm 13:1
Often have I wondered the same questions against You my Lord. In my own questioning I lacked the faith and trust in You to get me through the valley, I wanted my problems fixed and I wanted them fixed right away. Thank You for unanswered prayers, for had I had my way than I would not have listened to Your call of mercy and would have continued in my despair; living for myself. Jesus it is so easy to follow You on the mountain, when the bills are paid and I have security in my relationships. But when I lose the security I have in frivolous things than it is for a moment in time that I have a choice; die in my insecurity or trust in You. O how sweet it is to trust in You Jesus. To taste first hand the glory of Your forgiveness and the wonder of Your love towards us! Thank You, for Your mercy is able to overcome my sins. O what joy there is in serving the One True God. You are not like me, You are not discouraged because of my faults, You are thick-skinned and not an emotional wreck, You are Victorious, Perfect, Blameless, Righteous, Good, Glorious, Holy, Just, Love. I thank You for not giving up on me, for all the wrong I have done, You never let go and have never abandoned me. Rather, it is Your sweet grace that has been my only comfort in times of emptiness. When tears were my food day and night and I swam in my tears while I lay down to sleep (psalm 42), You were with me than. When I was no longer with my first love, if love it could be called, and sat in a bath tub ready to take my life, You were with me than. When I reached the deepest darkest level of my immorality and shame, You were with me than. Though distant in character You have never been distant in person. When the sorrows come again, when the sadness overwhelms me in my human frailty, may I look back at Your tender mercies and as the psalmist said, may I also say...
“But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.”
Palsm 13:5
