40. Salt of the earth.

"You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men."
Matthew 5:13

"A good name is to be chosen Rather than great riches,
Loving favor rather than silver and gold"
Proverbs 22:1

Lord, I am sorrowful and feel much regret for the relationships by which I lost my favor and saltiness by my actions or words. A price cannot be put on the value of a good name, worth is inexpressible of a friend who is trustworthy and loyal. Could i recall the wasted opportunities to be such a friend? My reputation as a man of this world is worthless as my home is where You are. But what if I lose my reputation as one who loves and serves You, than I have lost much indeed. Could anything worse be said of one who follows after You than that he is a hypocrite? But so it was with I Lord, so it was that I myself was a hypocrite and a liar, had I even known You I do not know, for although I knew of You I had not put my trust in You, and although I knew You as savior I did not worship You as Lord. Had i deceived myself so long to believe that I was a follower of You; a follower with hidden sins? As if any sin is hidden from You who knows all things including our most secret thoughts. For it is true that You know me better than i know myself, and You see deep into my soul and understand me. Desires and feelings i do not understand but You know me Lord, for You made me, and i was designed by You to bring You glory. Know me Lord and teach me my purpose. You have been my Savior as You alone are the Savior of the world, now please be my Lord and be delighted with Your servant. Than i shall know in obedience that my worship is not superficial or fake, that i am not a hypocrite. That my worship will bring Joy to my Kings face, change this hardened heart to love Your law and delight in Your teachings, may i praise You all the days of my life, for You are good to me. Be blessed my King.