73. A Walk With Jesus (Rest)

And He said to them, "Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while." For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat. Mark 6:31

How diligent are the hands of a friend. The disciples had a purpose and direction to their lives when the Lord had previously sent them out two by two on their missionary journey. Preaching repentance and proclaiming the kingdom the followers of Jesus neglected their bodily needs to serve the greater cause. I think it could be said that too often we grow weary when concerned with the bodily needs and therefore burn ourselves out when we forget that which is necessary; namely Jesus.

I had an emotional breakdown earlier today, i was simply put, a wreck. My weeks have been clouded with distractions and my mind has wandered to and fro, never abiding long in the presence of my God. Prayer has been difficult with the weighing down of my conscious preoccupation with matters concerning things i have no control over. My condition reached a climax when i broke down in tears while driving down the road, not once, but three times; a continuous moment of tearful irritation and honest communication.

"Come... and rest a while." The invitation of the Lord to take time out of our day and find rest in the comfort of His presence is refreshing. Burnout is a condition of the heart, more than a condition of the flesh. I can honestly say that Jesus is the source of all the is good in me, and my source of life. How can i say this? Because i am able to compare my life, when i abide in Him and when i don't.

I am Lonely, forgetting the relationship i have with God.
I am Sorrowful, forgetting the reason for my Joy.
I am Depressed, forgetting the hope i have in Him.
I am Angry, forgetting He has good plans for me.
I am Anxious, forgetting He is sovereign.

All these things and more i swiftly become when i shift my focus from Jesus to Jason. And i spiral out of control until His love draws me back in and begins to break this prideful man of His habits and restores me, why must i be so stubborn and foolish to worry about things that will not matter 10 weeks from now.

Father, Thank you, for always suffering long for us, and patiently calling out to us, wanting and waiting for us to answer. I am slow of hearing and my response is sluggish at best, but You have not given up, Your faithfulness towards me exceeds any expectation one could have of You and i am grateful. Please finish the work You have started and teach me Your ways, i desire to be a man after Your precious heart; guide my life in that direction i pray. Amen~