Sing to the LORD, you saints of his;
praise his holy name.
For His anger lasts only a moment,
but His favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Psalms 30:4-5
praise his holy name.
For His anger lasts only a moment,
but His favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Psalms 30:4-5
Loneliness! Loneliness Lord, a week of tears and loneliness. Who would call Depression a friend, but by what other name do you call someone you know so well; what a sickening twist of anxiety gnawing inside me. Those around me can not see, no they do not figure out the pain I am in. They cannot comprehend the force that trys to drag me down tempting me to medicate and satisfy the desires of my flesh, and for what? To cope with reality? To numb myself to the pains of this cruel planet that shows no mercy on the hearts of its inhabitants? Yet in my heartache You were with me, my hope for tomorrow. You told me to seek You, so I took You at Your word and You did not disappoint me. Rather You satisfied my heart with the riches of life and a breath of calmness. God I know this planet brings pain, and I know I must face it at all cost, Thank you for not leaving me alone in the thick of it all. In my darkest moments and toughest times I know I can trust You, I know I can call on Your name and You are quick to answer Your children. You are forever faithful to Your promises. May we sing Your praises with joy in our hearts for all the good things You have done for us. Thank you for coming down to earth as the Man of Sorrows and experiencing this pain, You know it well and for that i know no better Counselor, My Comforter and my dear Companion through the tears, Blessed be the name of the Lord.
For those who are also going through tough times, be patient and rely on Jesus to see things through. He understands rejection, He was acquainted with humility, He knows what it means to grieve, to lose a loved one and to bargain for release from the suffering. Jesus was not separated from the sorrows of life, I would argue that He experienced them more strongly than any other person on earth. If You are hurting, than you can rest assured knowing to the fullest that He is hurting with you and stands by your side every step of the way. Will you call on His name this evening, He is listening --trust me on this, He will see things through.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong, and let your heart take courage
wait for the LORD!
Psalm 27:14
be strong, and let your heart take courage
wait for the LORD!
Psalm 27:14
Have you been told you cannot love this girl and God at the same time? The world is made up of married people who love God and are married. Your heart aches for her this can be read in your words. Does she still love you? If so what are you waiting for? God has not taken away your love for her . Stop your sin put it away and no more let it be what keeps you away from her. Go to her.
ReplyDeletePS Just a little suggestion. Her dad if she has one is the old proper way of doing it just makes it more special for her. I was so proud of my husband for doing that for me. May God give you the desires of your heart and make two hearts one in His love.
Dear reader,
ReplyDeleteI know not the direction my heart should go, on one hand yes, i do still love her, on the other i know i am not ready, my addictions are not cleared away, my heart is changing yes this is so, but... i still find my weakness in my flesh. i have hurt her in ways i can not explain and i know it will only get worse before it gets better, should i one day return to her love by His grace on me, i do not know, but this i do know, i won't be with her with my life like this, i will not bring such sorrow on her again.